[BTR] Public? WHy yes, yes it is.
Aug. 21st, 2011 07:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Before I came through the Rift, I was captured, drugged, tortured and made to dig my own grave by a serial killer with disassociate identity disorder.
For Christmas, I received a self-refilling bottle of the same drug that I was given during that experience.
I still use is.
For Christmas, I received a self-refilling bottle of the same drug that I was given during that experience.
I still use is.
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Date: 2011-08-21 11:56 am (UTC)[locked]
Date: 2011-08-21 02:13 pm (UTC)I don't know if you'll believe me when I say this, but I want to help.
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Date: 2011-08-22 12:15 am (UTC)It's not that.
I'm sorry I was
You don't
I believe you. Thank you. Maybe we could talk some time.
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Date: 2011-08-22 09:19 am (UTC)How about tonight? The fact that I am working in the office this late--on a weekend, no less--really says something about my social life recently.
I could cook us something in Uchiko-chan's kitchen, if you'd like. We could even talk up there, if you don't mind her listening in, at least a little bit. She knows better than to say anything about things we've discussed with other people.
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Date: 2011-08-22 11:05 pm (UTC)Dinner sounds fine. I can meet you up there if you'd like. I'm not really sure about the talking. Can we just play it by ear?
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Date: 2011-08-24 11:39 am (UTC)You don't have to talk about it, but...just try not to shut me out if I bring up the subject, all right? At least consider what I have to say. Psychological trauma is one of the things that my powers react most strongly to, so I do have a rather extensive pool of practical experience with the subject.
[ She we move to a post in the comm or in Mio's journal? ...since I feel like Mio at least is going to be busting out epic storytiems in an effort to get Spencer to talk. ]
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Date: 2011-08-26 06:26 am (UTC)I'll see what I can do. I can't promise I'll be open about it but I'll try. I'll certainly listen, I just can't make promises about saying much on the topic.
[I do not actually care, whatever suits you is good with me. I'm just proud that the boy is going to talk to someone at this point.'[
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Date: 2011-08-21 04:32 pm (UTC)I didn'tOh, God. Not you too.I wish I knew what[She bursts into tears.]
Where are you?
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Date: 2011-08-22 12:01 am (UTC)But he remembers Cassie's words, remembers what she went through and in the end, that's what makes him say something]
It's not your fault, don't be sorry. You didn't have a hand in it.
I'm in my room. The door's unlocked.
[Actionspam? :D?]
Date: 2011-08-22 02:02 pm (UTC)But I'm sorry it ha[She stops. Writing over the journal network is not working. Instead, she's going to go to his room.
She knocks quietly and opens the door slightly, peering in. Thankfully, she's stopped crying - but she feels like she might start again.]
Spence? [Awkward pause.] ... Hey.
[Hurrah, actionspam! :D:D:D]
Date: 2011-08-22 10:55 pm (UTC)he sits up when Cassie enters, setting his journal aside and smiling weakly.] Hi, sorry. I was....[But he's not really sure what he was going to say with that sentence so it just trails off.]
Re: [Hurrah, actionspam! :D:D:D]
Date: 2011-08-22 11:55 pm (UTC)Without saying anything, she quickly makes her way across the room, slides onto his bed and pulls him into a tight hug.]
I'm so sorry. I... I wish I'd known before now. I would've. I don't know. I would've done... something.
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Date: 2011-08-23 01:16 am (UTC)It's not your fault, I didn't tell you. I...wish I had known about you too. I know there's nothing I could have done but I wish I had known.
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Date: 2011-08-23 01:27 am (UTC)God.. I just.. I hate this stupid city. If it weren't for people like you and my friends, I'd have no reason to want to stay at all.
[She pulls away slightly and stares at him for a few moments. Quietly putting her hands up to his face, she shakes her head.]
You can't do this, you have to stop. I don't know what it is you're taking, but you can't do it. You're hurting yourself, Spencer. It's not the right way to deal with this.
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Date: 2011-08-23 01:34 am (UTC)He closes his eyes at her touchy, taking in a slow deep breath. And then she speaks. He pulls away but not too far, not even out of her grasp, just a little.] Can we talk about this later, Cassie? Please?
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Date: 2011-08-23 01:49 am (UTC)...I don't want this to end up destroying you. I've lost too many people here already, I don't want to end up losing you.
[She pauses and purses her lips. She leans forward, pressing her forehead against his and closing her eyes.]
You promise to talk about it? Promise me?
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Date: 2011-08-23 01:52 am (UTC)[He closes his eyes and takes in another slow, deep breath. then he moves his head so that he's leaving a quick kiss against her forehead.] I'll talk about it, just...not right now.
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Date: 2011-08-23 02:10 am (UTC)But...
[She trails off and sighs, he doesn't want to talk about it. And she doesn't want to force him to. Smiling weakly at the kiss, she lifts her head to brush a quick kiss against his lips before she can give herself time to think about not doing it.]
... Alright. We'll do that.
[She purses her lips for a moment.]
What do you want to talk about?
Doing these tags to The Hunger is really, really strange. XD
Date: 2011-08-23 02:14 am (UTC)I have absolutely no idea. [he laughs, his arms still around her.] I don't know what the appropriate type of conversation is for a situation like this.
The band, movie or TV show? xD
Date: 2011-08-23 02:35 am (UTC)She smiles weakly.]
I don't really know either. Usually my Mum puts the kettle on. But... talking is good.
I'm going to talk to Martha at some point ... about what happened. She.. went through something like that.
[She pauses.]
I can't be angry like this any more. I'm not meant to be an angry person.
The movie. I did not realize there was a band or TV show., though I'm not surprised the former exis
Date: 2011-08-23 02:45 am (UTC)We could go do that if you want. Really, whatever you want to do is fine by me. [Except talking about his issue. That's about it.
Hie closes his eyes at those words, unsure of what he should do. He tightens his hold around her and moves to press a kiss into her hair.]
What can I do?
I want to watch thaaaat.
Date: 2011-08-23 03:03 am (UTC)She sighs and settles against his more comfortably. She feels better staying here. She knows she's going to have to see others, the network is flooding with secrets - but for now she just wants to stay.
She does still want to talk about his problem, but she knows that won't work in the slightest.]
I don't know... I just..
[She pauses.]
Don't... hit anyone about it. I've had enough friends offering this and I've tried it myself, doesn't make me feel any better. Punching Kaden only got me a broken hand.
I think i should ahve paid more attention to it when it was on. XD
Date: 2011-08-23 03:12 am (UTC)I'll keep that in mind. [he wasn't planning on hitting anyone though the thought had crossed his mind to put a hole in the wall. He can still do that though, so that's so9mething.
One hand moves to rub light circles at her back and he sighs again, looking around them as if doing so might give him something to say. He doesn't have anything to say though, not really. His words ran out a long time ago and while he has an armful of excuses, he doesn't have much else[
I think, this is the point where people break out the alcohol, though I never understood why considering alcohol isn't a stimulant.
XDDDD
Date: 2011-08-23 03:43 am (UTC)Thank you.
[... She would rather much he didn't. :x
The silence is nice, she's not really sure what to say either. Thinking about that is better for her than dwelling on their... not-so-secret secrets.]
Alcohol is always a good thing to do at times like this. It's really for kind of calming you down. Whenever I was back home, if one of my girlfriends broke up with some lad - the rest of us would say 'Come on, we'll have a night out on the town.'
You just sort of relax, get silly and talk about absolute rubbish when you do when you're drunk and just end up making one another laugh until we feel better.
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Date: 2011-08-23 10:11 pm (UTC)It's no problem. Really, it's not.
[He listens as she talks, considers what she says but he's still not entirely sure he gets it.] But Alcohol is a depressant. It's only going to make you more miserable than you already are. Well, it should. I know that different people have different experiences with it.
[He pauses, considering what he's saying and then just shakes his head] Would you like to find alcohol, Cassie?
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Date: 2011-08-24 10:28 pm (UTC)[She chuckles softly, and nods her head.]
I think that sounds like a good plan. I think I have a few bottles of wine in my room. I always keep some, since there's usually an occasion I need it from time to time.
Or we can go out, The Crowbar - I know people there. It's a good place.
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Date: 2011-08-25 11:27 pm (UTC)[he is probably thinking too much on this. It's either think about this or think about their secrets. He likes this.
He shrugs, not really caring either way.]
It's up to you, this is more your area of expertise than mine.